I never thought Separation Anxiety can last
for so long. It’s been 6 months since I returned to work and the guilt of
tasking others to temporarily care for my child while I am gone still lingers
on a daily basis. It became especially more difficult when little Selina
Barbara eventually realized what was happening on her 6th month. Thinking
about it, I’ve always wondered what babies feel every time their carers go out
for work or even just for a quick errand. Bearing in mind that I wouldn’t want her to
feel stressed or anxious everytime I leave for work, I had to device my quick “ninja moves”
every morning. I couldn’t bear seeing the innocent look on my little one
every time I walk out the door. *breaks my heart*
Now that we are nearing our 9th
month mark, I continue looking forward to coming home to see her face light
up on my every arrival. I continue to entrust her and her nanny to my mother
every morning, and we have developed a routine that does not upset her every
time I leave. I would like to believe that she is handling things perfectly,
and it is just me who keeps feeling the anxiety within. As a full time working mom,
there are days when I wished I could just stay at home with her. At times,
depression would rush in while driving to work, leaving me in tears. But at
this point, I have to endure the gloom that hovers my morning and remind myself
that her papa and I are doing this to secure her of a bright and comfortable
future. The love we feel for our children is immeasurable. In fact, no matter
how passe it seems, it is true that we will do anything for them -- like bringing them to your company's team building activity because you are exclusively breastfeeding and co-sleeping.
#parentingwoes
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Company Team Building 2016
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Don't grow up too fast my love |
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Despite the anxiety separation
leaves us, it’s also nice to keep a bright perspective on this. Seeing the
glass half full rather than empty, I’ve read somewhere that this stage implies
that our babies are becoming smarter. They start to remember and recognize
things, people, events and ideas. Their clingy behavior is an indicator
of how much security they feel with you. In other words, it’s a manifestation
of their love for you. Well, this phase is temporary. Once they are old
enough to seek independence, they will be glad every time you walk out the door
(this we know oh-so-very-well LOL). Taking off from this, the best thing I
could do for the meantime is to treasure these moments while it still lasts.
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Who could resist this face?? |
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You make my waking hour worth it |
They say you could never really
spoil your child with love and attention. A fellow parent and friend once told
me that they will graduate from these phases at their own pace. At this point,
it is but nice to know that there are other mothers/parents in similar situations.
We cope in whatever way we can, and our babies do too. I guess what is more
important is that we get to kiss and hug them again at the end of every working
day. Plus, we have the entire weekends too! Like everything else, this too
shall come to pass and we will have another milestone to celebrate for. The Christmas
weekend is just around the corner! I can’t wait to spend our first Christmas as
a family together!
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